what happen to me

Thanks for the moments.
Thanks for all the laughter.
Thanks for being with me.

Made a lot of promises that cant be done forever.
Showing love to loved ones isn't easy.
Crying out your heart is hard.
I'm a total bastard?
I betrayed my own feelings.
Saying that i wont be crying but did in my dreams.
Lips muttered 'ihateyou' but saying 'iloveyou' inside.
Thinking about it wont save me,
it will kill me.
You changed me.
Totally crying for you.
Missing you every seconds even though i told myself not to.
Waiting for your morning greetings everyday can wake me up.
Just one word can change my day.

Just don't wanna suffer anymore.